My New Year
Strangely enough, this very much loved time of year has historically been a hard time for me. Specifically, the month of October. This goes as far back as my teenage years. Not every October, but if I look back at significant moments in my life, me and October have been at odds with one another. But I am not going to write about that. Perhaps I will when the month has passed because in spite of my skeptical nature, I can be very superstitious.
Instead, I am taking stock and using this month as a jumping off point to things I have been putting aside, procrastinating about, and generally neglecting. This time of year has always felt more like the beginning of something, such as a year. That must come from childhood and the school year and then as a parent, you again organize your life by the school year. The end of Summer feels more like an ending than the month of December. Also, the past two years have seen my summers occupied with training on my bike. I put everything off during that time. I also use it as an excuse. Ya, I’ll get to that after my bike ride.
Day 1 of 40 Days of Writing is coming at a good time. I have been wanting to write more and this challenge keeps me focused on that, but it also serves as a beginning of something and that is where my head is at. My list is long. There is so much I want to do, and also so much I don’t want to do, but must. Since my bike ride, I have organized my storage unit so I can move into a smaller space by November 1st and I have gotten my neglected car in for an oil change and new tires. I also made an appointment with a new doctor. I feel fine, I’m healthy, but I have been putting off those regular yearly things, such as getting my boobs smushed in that contraption.
So, I’m working on that list. There are career moves, family obligations, old friends to catch up with, and a couple monkeys to get off my back. I hope to have my list complete by the time the real new year rolls around, because I’ve been told that 2013 is supposed to be a good one for me. I intend to be ready, with a mind at ease and an open heart.